Snow Shoveling Brain Aneurysm

Déjà vu / jamais vu

You're tired. Tired in the sense of tired, you've had enough. Since you can remember, you're looking for something to fill the emptiness you feel inside. Have you tried in every way to fill it and have always failed. Throw in the towel. Start let go of everything, stop fighting. Lay down the sword, you undress armature, free, faithful steed, a companion of many battles against the windmills. It 's your yield. Do not want to make an effort in nothing. You sit on the bench and watch. You begin to observe the external events in the world, and internal, in your body, without interfering in them. Look, do not try to fight them, to become the voyeur of the plots of fate. Inhaling, exhaling, heartbeat, involuntary muscle contractions, abdominal cramps, tremors. Thoughts, memories slip away like that. Magically, slowly, without even realizing it, you find yourself bored with a mind like a sieve. Unable to fill with something, able to let it all away. Head like a hole. One day you wake up, you get up and see all that you seem to see it for the first time. Jamais vu. You do not know how you got in this situation ..... do not remember it. Get in up a book you've already read many times, or so you think, and feel that all of its content slips away when you try to recall it. Déjà vu. You have not forgotten how to read, but close enough. Watch a movie, plays a song. Old stuff, something in your head tells you that maybe once you've had to deal with it. Every effort is futile, especially because you have lost the ability to strive. You could hear a thousand times below the same story, and each time would be exciting as the first. Listen to a song and it is not associated with any memory or thought. Listen to the song and the song is just, free from any interpretation or meaning. What kind of magic that overlap and sequence Sound! That feeling you called boredom does not exist anymore .... or perhaps never existed, mah .... do not really remember. For you, everything is new, always. Look at what you are presented out the window and each time is indescribable. To tell what you see there are no words .... at least in your head. The dictionary is so stripped-down, you let go the words and meanings. In this new perspective clearly see that no word can better describe the object of the object. Probably thinking, "describe in words, that vain effort!" If only you had not forgotten what it means effort. Then walk past the mirror and see your reflection. Do you account of your appearance, and it is a shock. That the miracle .... mirror?!? In the reflection you touch the cheek, just some face, a pair of faces, then a toothy smile. You are once again become dangerously innocent.
If I were a contestant on a TV game show, you'd be the first to go home. You'd be at the same time the disappointment of those who you would like to win and the joy of those who would like to win. Is not it great!? With a puzzled frowns and one finger you scratch my temple ...., the last attempt of the thing ... the effort .... Mah ... win, lose ...., you get the impression that these words do not say anything. Not anymore.